12th/13th of October, 2010

Current Game: BC2, LoL

Current Music: Tool, Upheaval

Current Book: Bartimaeus – The Ring of Solomon

Currently watching: the clouds…

At around 6 o´ clock pm yesterday i decided not to go on the party. Somehow I felt not well (i got ill again and I am still tired) and somehow I was not very motivated to got there. I think it´s just the same as always: Really bad music, a lot of annoying and stupid people and it´s really no fun watching other people drinking alcohol. I enjoyed my evening at home, where I watched a film together with my brother and then played a lot Bad Company 2. Being the best player, even if you lose the game, is very satisfying. Actually I just wanted to play one match League of Legends every day… But… I wonder if there will be a day when there is NO problem with LoL. Yesterday, unfortunately and typically there was again a new patch. And of course Riot is so fail that they can´t even manage to get their patch servers clean of bugs. But no, it wouldn´t be Riot, if it were so. So what actually happened is this: my game wanted to update itself and then downloaded a broken patch, installed it and then noticed in the middle of installation that there is a grave mistake, and that I should restart my application. I did as ordered and of course it did not work. After deleting and installing the game 3 times I had enough. I deleted everything that concerned LoL from my PC. Today I just downloaded the new version of LoL and, oh wonder, it worked! I hope there won´t be another fail patch today. But well… it´s a Free2Play game and you shouldn´t expect high quality.

Today I just did my duties at home as far as possible. I am not yet finished. I tried to draw and paint something today. It worked until a certain point when I could not keep up the motivation and just threw away the paper I was drawing on. I do not know what´s wrong with me. Maybe I should just try to do simple anatomical studies. I think I have the problem, that I have a lot of cool ideas but I lack the means to convert the thoughts into artworks. I should practise a lot more before I start to do paintings from my imagination, what actually never works. And I need some kind of project again, which I can attend to. It´s hard to draw something if you don´t have a concept or you don´t know what you are actually drawing for. Well… there are still a lot of things to do, and I have to get back to work. Maybe I´ll write again tonight. See you.